If Tomorrow Never Comes...

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one

And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes
(If Tomorrow Never Comes, Ronan Keating)

"Tell that someone that you love just what you're thinking of.." Sounds like a cliche advice, doesn't it? But these few days made me realize just how true it is..and I actually became paranoid enough to suddenly sms my parents just to tell them that though I don't email and sms them often, though I seem lost in my own world, I love them very much. Knowing just how fragile human lives are, I wonder why I still take people for granted in my life,and to a certain extent "ignore" them.. and the people I take for granted the most are also the ones who love me the most...The ones who are always there, who always pick up the phone when I call, who try the hardest to understand me, whom I can always lean on and depend on.. parents, close friends, church people...
I guess I know why... these people who love me the most are also the ones who want to protect me the most.. who doesn't want me to get hurt, to stray, to make mistakes, to get into a mess.... and it's so difficult to find a balance between showing them I love them by doing what they want me to do (which, actually, is the saner and safer things most of the time) while still staying true to myself.. For I want to fly, run, jump, get hurt, get burnt, get messy, but get the most out of Life...
And for now all I could do...is just tell them how much I love them...

To J: Be courageous, be strong, rest well, and stay sane =)